I would like to be Nicole Kidman and just sing my way out of this but I guess it’s impossible right now. I feel kind of sad. The school I’ve been working since 1999 is going to be closed 2010. I am not very glad right now. I feel really betrayed. Where are all the pupils going? I have done my best with very difficult pupils - and sometimes much more than my personal best - and suddenly they don’t need my effort any more. What the hell that means?

Why start a blog? Am I really so interesting and captivating person? Perhaps not, at least not to somebody else, but to myself I am still an enigma. And by writing I have always been able to concentrate and gather information about that odd person I live in.

But why in English, because I am not an English-speaking person? Perhaps it’s easier. In my own language things are said very frankly and some words bites badly. English is somehow softer. And it’s not too intimate.

This is something I’ve never done before so I have to be patient with myself.